Laughing people pass me by.
Someone has complained that 本小姐 has not been updating my blog and it's very boring. I'd have to agree Chew! :D Alrighty here's my update for this Nov:
5 Nov: Chinese O and Heart of God church.
6 Nov: Starts work officially at Bakerzin.
21- 25 Nov: GB Annual Camp
29- 13 Dec: Cambodia trip.
Please keep the Cambodia mission trip in prayer cuz the riots in Cambodia are still on- going. Pray that by the time we reach there, things would have settled down and peaceful. Thanks guys.
Things have been smooth- sailing so far, so far so good. Be it my relationship with my Daddy God or school or church or family, I'm really thankful that things are not worse. Thinking back,giving up leaders for gb may not be the wisest choice of all, but I'm still content that I chose that decision. GB may not be what I'm really passionate for anymore but I guess it's the friends that I've made that changed my life thoroughly. And I believe that it wasn't the time for me to rise up as a leader cuz I was really very concerned about the number of people in my cell, when it was like about less than 5 people. Thus I wasn't really very enthusiastic being the assistant cell leader, yea I was very realistic. Furthermore I had to live up to people's expectations being what I am, so I was very depressed and stress at that period of time. Certainly it sounds good being called a leader and stuff but really doing what you're supposed to do can really tire me out. I don't like to live up to people's expectations but honestly speaking, what can i do? This is Leaders. I fell. I wasn't strong enough. I wasn't brave enough. I weren't up to God's expectations of me, I failed totally. Totally man. But that didn't stop God from continuing to lavish Him love on me, He continued to see me through my days, He continued to hear my prayers in times of need, He continued to give me a chance to wake up and experience His mercy and touching people's lives around me everyday till now. Most importantly, He led me out of the shadow of a sin that you'll never imagine that I had gone through. (Or maybe you knew.) I just wanna say that God is really God. He's so good to me, really good. He didn't give up on me when I've given up on myself. He's always there for me when I prayed to Him, though it was like talking to vacum and it really seemed stupid, but isn't that what faith is all about, believing in the unseen.
I wanna encourage those who're going through a tough time, be it in your spiritual walk with God or any other situations, or you feel very dry and lost inside, keep praying to God. Pour out all your troubles and confide in God. He'll see you through. Though God is God, and you may ask " Eh, He's God what? I thought He knows everything." Yes He's God, true, He knows everything. But He's also our friend. Try putting yourself in God's shoes, you love someone dearly, wouldn't you want that someone to confide in you when things go wrong even if you know that something is wrong? If he or she didn't tell you, would you feel very devestated and sad? It's the same for God too. He wants you to tell Him even though He knows. "He confides in those who're close to Him", as my bible says. "As you draw close to me, I'll draw close to you", "Cast all your anxieties on Him for He cares for you."- 1 Peter 5: 7.
Remember,God is not only God, He's also your friend, a friend that will never leave you in the lurch in times of trouble.
