Tuesday, October 28, 2008 10:30 PM
Maths's on tomorrow and freak! What the bleah am I still doing here?? But oh well, might as well for a little while more. The afterward of Math is of course Chee Na and weeee! Off to Bakerzin. Sometimes I just want time to fly past and slow down at the day which I really loveee to bittts, like on the 6 of November because I'm starting work officially then. But God says to take one day at a time hon. Cambodia is in a month's time. And I'm not a little excited for it, maybe its because of Maths and Chee Na. You know, concentration elsewhere, which is on Maths and Chee Na. For no rhyme or reason, I just wanna find someone to argue with. My mouth's feeling itchy haha! Cya soon guys!
Monday, October 27, 2008 9:49 AM
大姨妈来探班！Yes all those 行动不方便 and stuff are back. I was very moody the whole day, mind you! I didn't smile much today, just pulling a long, grumpy face. Heloo!!!! It's deepavali today leh! If I were a Indian, I won't go for house visitations man, if not, I'll be shitting at people's house. That isn't very good ya' know! But still, I thank God for mensuration cycles. That signifies feminity and fertility. Sometimes I really thank God that I'm a woman. In this way, I do not need to work on my abs and biceps(though I really wish my future BF/ Husband will have. I know what you're thinking. HELLOOO! It's a hotttt body in exchange hon!) I do not need to care a hoot about chasing girls, I need not have wet dreams. Come to think of it, being a woman is a blessed gift from heaven. You know it's so common for men to get to the top of their carrer and due to discrmination, women are often ostracised. Thus, I'm gonna be a mighty carrer woman and one who is capable at juggling between work and family. And that is, if God's plan allows that to happen. And and and, it's also very common for men to be on fire for God, I'm not saying that it's not good, but exactly how many women mentioned in the bible were living their lives for God other than Queen Esther? (I believe that there are many more just that my bible knowledge isn't that deep. My bad.) That's why I'm determined to make my christian life one that will showcase God's glory, power, grace and love. Be it my testimony or lifestyle, let God be glorified in everyday of my life.
Sunday, October 26, 2008 6:10 AM
It's the late night catching up with me once more. Fear factor was on and of course I stayed up to watched and I was totally amazed at the 75 year old guy who could withstand all those toturous stunts and stuff. He's really good I'd have to say. What do you expect? He's been through the Korean war my dear. Slept at 4, woke up at a really "ostentatious" timing at 2.45 in the afternoon. Dad wanted to have lunch at Aston's and of course I agreed. The food was really delicious. I had new york steak and Dad had black pepper. Their coleslaw is the best coleslaw I've ever tasted, so fresh and yummy yummy. Try it, you really have to. Save your trip to Katong, you can try it at the branch near my school. I guess they're equally tasty. I shall try the Katong one someday, see how it goes, it'd be good if it's on my birthday. *Hint hint* :) That'd be all for today. :> head on to the next blog! :):)
Saturday, October 25, 2008 10:06 AM
Love, every one would want very much to love or be loved. Of course I, me and myself included. In the past, I know nuts about loving one self. I was suicidal, I was always hot- tempered and I was just having those bad habits.(for those who know. :)) But there were people who loved me through those moments and stuck with me to the end. When I looked back, I thought "How foolish was I??" I've hurt my parents, myself and most importantly, God He Himself. God has really transformed me from a good- for- nothing into a child of God, a mighty warrior, a person who puts others' interests before self for Him. You see? God uses nothing and changes it into something that He can use to show His love and power to the fallen world.
In my dictionary, love is not only just a feeling, it's a commitment, it's responsibility, it's the urge to be there for someone who ignores what the world says about them and continues to run after God fervently without caring for his dignity, it's thinking of the person now and then, thanking the Lord twice for his pressence in your life. I believe that love is 1 Corinthians 13. I will be patient, I will be kind. I will not envy, I will not boast, I will not be proud. I will not be rude, I will not be selfish, I will not be easily angered, I will keep no record of wrongs. I will not delight in evil but will rejoice with the truth. I will always protect, trust, hope and perservere in you.
When we begin to change 1 Corinthians 13 into "I", we'll begin to see a different picture of love. Love that does not rely on worldly and flesh desires but just for the interests of the other party, be it a good friend or the special one. I believe that being in a relationship with someone special ought to draw both I and him closer to God, not drifting away from Him. In my years of covenant, I've come to realize what do I really think of the word L- O- V- E. I don't want to be in a relationship just because I want to, I don't want to be in a relationship in which only because the guy is handsome, I don't want to be in a relationship with a non- christian (no offence), I don't want to be in a relationship when he
thinks that he likes me. On the other hand, I would want to be in a relationship which will draw me and my special one closer to the One who made us to be together, I want to be in a relationship in regardless of the man's features but his heart for God, I want to be in a relationship with a christian, I want to be in a relationship when we know that we're so in love with each other and know that we're meant for each other. That's why I pray really hard for my first to be my last.
Oh well, that's my point of view in love. Thank you for reading of you're still reading.
Sunday, October 19, 2008 4:01 AM
My mind has been ticking alot these days. The past Mand has seemed to return and that's good, at least I can sit down and ponder in deep thoughts.
Many people spend half of their life searching exactly who they are. Usually not starting from inside, but from their eyes. They start to keep a lookout for those really cool and sophisticated people whom they can imitate and soon, you'll see a Brad Pitt inspired. (If you get what I mean.)
What they do not actually know is that God has created us, every individual one of us as unique as He can. Thus, this tells us that we need not spend half of our lives searching who we are and what we are by the people around us. The real you is already inside of you yourself. He's just being hidden inside by ourselves all the time.
The real essence of life is not figuring out what life is all about, it's actually finding out who you are in Christ, because in Him, we can find our very own self, our very own character, our very own personality and our very own passions and dreams in Him.
Saturday, October 18, 2008 8:31 AM
Ern's post really touched my heart. It brought me back to the knowledge of my Heavenly Papa's love for me. To be honest, I haven't been doing well spiritually. I'm more concerned about myself rather than being concerened for His feelings, His love for me. In fact, I just chunked Him aside for the past few days. QT not done, prayers not said. It just sucks big time to just not be in the pressence of God. Until Ern's mesaage came in, then I came to realized, what I've texted her back were the very words that I ought to remind myself about God's unending love and His want for my company. He has been trying very hard to pull me back, just that I was so very ashamed about my own wrongdoings, I wasn't worthy of His love for me, but yet, He still chose to pull me back from the world of darkness into being light of His vast love. My God is really an Awesome God.
Friday, October 17, 2008 12:37 AM
The day seemed dry to start out with,
but it wouldn't be routine I guess.
This isn't life man.
Its Boring Boring BORING!!!
And I think it's time to get back to y= mx+c.
Just you wait and see!
Thursday, October 16, 2008 1:53 AM
Results are out!
English: 62
Maths: B4
Chinese: 73.5
Comb. Humans: 41
Comb. Science: 37
POA: 32
D&T: 55
In total I failed 3 subjects and miraculously passed 4 subjects! by God's amazing grace. Things could have been worse ya' know. Of course I wasn't very satisfied with my results at first, but come to think of it, what's the point crying over spilt milk? But I did put in my best in studying uber last min, and I meant really last minute. I couldn't ask for more man. Really thank God for His amazing grace and mercy. Criteria to prompote to Sec 5 TT is L1R4= 19 points. But I have gotten 20 points. Just have to pray and wait for the results. What else can I do right? Alright, I'd have to focus on my maths and chee na now. I don't know why, but I just feel a sense of comfort and peace in me.
Thank You. :DMonday, October 13, 2008 8:32 AM
A big chnage is seen on- going in me.
A good one, to be honest.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 6:08 AM
Mandy...
a. saw Jia Cheng today.
b. has gotten the life- saving formula list from Sarah.
c. cycled around aimlessly while waiting for Sarah.
d. wasted time today.
d. BUT! did QT. :D
e. missed her friends today.
f. gave a serious thought about her future life and carrer, and
g. is determined to include God in her life no matter what.
h. is going to study now.
I. Good- ByeFriday, October 3, 2008 9:28 PM
Facebook seems to have changed their webpage,
mentality of mine seems to be changing constantly as well.
Well I hope it will be for the better.
I guessed I have matured ever since I have faced reality.
At least I feel more at ease with myself and who I am.
Just wanna say
"Daddy God, thank you for accepting me for who I am, thank you for my family, thank you for the true friends You've blessed me with. Thank you for letting me pass this stage of life where I will see what hurts You, feel what makes Your heart bleed, and know that You'll bind this distorted, broken heart of mine. Thank You for everything."
