I've gotten back my prelims results today and it was totally unexpected...in a good way. I've improved from L1R4 40++ points to 36, L1R4 27. Thank God! I thought I'd done worse but by the amazing grace of God, I've gotten better results. Now I'm rather relaxed cause' D&T is already at the back of my mind, except for theory. Need not worry so much for English but have to continue to practice and practice more for poa and of course study for humans. The "O" level ambience is already here, I can totally feel it and intensive starts tomorrow. Many people are telling me not to got for tutor but I'll still go for tutor's because I can learn much more from her than in school. That's it for school.
Life's been good. Just that I always feel vacant inside me. Maybe it's because I haven't been to church for a long, long time that the spiritual side of me has gone as well. It sucks to feel this way because I'll tend to think alot if I feel vacant. And that's good and bad at the same time.
Was it a mistake to tell you my genuine thoughts? I feel that we've distant since that incident and I really wanna talk things out. I don't know if you still treasure this friendship as much as before and I don't know what I'm going through. It's just turmoils over and over again each day I wake up. You're the first person I think of at the beginning of the day and the last when I sleep. That's why I never ever wanted to tell someone my true feelings because I'm afraid this will happen and it'll be one- sided. And I guess it is so for us. 