Thursday, February 26, 2009 7:51 AM
A prayer answered once again! He's definitely near me. Every time I turn to God in prayer, He'll never fail to bring me through crisis, regardless big or small. This is my God.
SS and History tests were thankfully manageable and and yes, they squeezed the brain juices out of me. But hey! At least I managed to be able to write an essay with relevant factors and points. Thank God! I've spent only 20 minutes? on studying SS & Hist and thank God man! I actually felt peace at heart. I realized that it's not a matter of whether I can study, but it's a matter of want or not.
(Thank God that I'M A CHRISTIAN!)
There's Chem test tomorrow and I'm off to study the notes now. Addios!
Cheers,
Mand.
SS and History tests were thankfully manageable and and yes, they squeezed the brain juices out of me. But hey! At least I managed to be able to write an essay with relevant factors and points. Thank God! I've spent only 20 minutes? on studying SS & Hist and thank God man! I actually felt peace at heart. I realized that it's not a matter of whether I can study, but it's a matter of want or not.
(Thank God that I'M A CHRISTIAN!)
There's Chem test tomorrow and I'm off to study the notes now. Addios!
Cheers,
Mand.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009 5:46 AM
I'm not myself these days.
I've long forgotten who I really am.
Totally.
I may be smiling on the outside,
But I'm lost inside, thoroughly.
Who am I fighting in life for?
The purpose is often blurred,
Too many times to count.
Who am I studying for?
Who am I living for?
Without my very first love,
It's really hard to get by with life.
I need you Daddy,
Though I can't see you,
You are ever- present in my life.
Without You, I really can't go on.
Let me run back to You,
Because in You,
I'll always be able to find my true self.
I've long forgotten who I really am.
Totally.
I may be smiling on the outside,
But I'm lost inside, thoroughly.
Who am I fighting in life for?
The purpose is often blurred,
Too many times to count.
Who am I studying for?
Who am I living for?
Without my very first love,
It's really hard to get by with life.
I need you Daddy,
Though I can't see you,
You are ever- present in my life.
Without You, I really can't go on.
Let me run back to You,
Because in You,
I'll always be able to find my true self.
Sunday, February 22, 2009 8:53 AM
I miss you Kuah Jiong Jiong! 4:38 AM
Hello world! I'm alright now. I'm sorry about the previous emo post. Was feeling really down last night and wanted to find somewhere to vent everything out. Not to worry, everything is alright now. :)
I didn't attend church like some other Sundays cause' today is not like other Sundays. Just wanted to stay home and take a rest from the normal routine cause' I was feeling really drained out physically, emotionally and spiritually. I just wanted to be alone, all by myself. It's better now. Took a few moments to just worship God and that really helped alot. I felt so lost when I didn't turn to Him when I needed Him most, instead I turn to my friends. Now friends, that's a really wrong move. Really turn to God when we need Him, never assume that friends understand everything, only God does. But I'm not saying I have friends who don't understand me, but you get what I mean.
I got to go now, that's all for the updates for now. Have a great week ahead.
Cheers,
Mand.
I didn't attend church like some other Sundays cause' today is not like other Sundays. Just wanted to stay home and take a rest from the normal routine cause' I was feeling really drained out physically, emotionally and spiritually. I just wanted to be alone, all by myself. It's better now. Took a few moments to just worship God and that really helped alot. I felt so lost when I didn't turn to Him when I needed Him most, instead I turn to my friends. Now friends, that's a really wrong move. Really turn to God when we need Him, never assume that friends understand everything, only God does. But I'm not saying I have friends who don't understand me, but you get what I mean.
I got to go now, that's all for the updates for now. Have a great week ahead.
Cheers,
Mand.
Saturday, February 21, 2009 7:53 AM
Everything in life seems to be so blurry.
Nothing seems right, nothing feels right.
I need a light, a direction and a hope.
I need you by my side.
At this point in time, I really need you.
Nothing seems right, nothing feels right.
I need a light, a direction and a hope.
I need you by my side.
At this point in time, I really need you.
Friday, February 20, 2009 11:12 PM
I am alright.
But I'm resting at home.
Nothing's wrong.
Just that the doctor suspected that my appendix was swollen.
And if the pain returns in the middle of the night,
I'll have to fly to A&E for a check- up.
But!
THANK GOD!
The pain did not return.
Yea that's about it.
Cheers,
Mand.
But I'm resting at home.
Nothing's wrong.
Just that the doctor suspected that my appendix was swollen.
And if the pain returns in the middle of the night,
I'll have to fly to A&E for a check- up.
But!
THANK GOD!
The pain did not return.
Yea that's about it.
Cheers,
Mand.
Monday, February 16, 2009 4:51 AM
Sometimes life just brings the best out of you, but it can also bring out the worst in you.
We don't normally ask how, we ask why.
At that split second, I can literally feel Your heartbreak.
And it freaking hurts. Really.
We don't normally ask how, we ask why.
At that split second, I can literally feel Your heartbreak.
And it freaking hurts. Really.
Monday, February 9, 2009 4:08 AM
This blog is really being deserted by me so badly. Oh well, I guess life has been too goody for me that I've already long forgotten about this site of mine. Life's been great so far. I've been talking to friends whom I used to hate and not talk to at all. And I'm really blessed to have them in our crossing paths. I guessed everyone has a certain depth of LOVE for every individual. I mean 5A didn't start off well. Different cliques here and there but through these 2 years, we've really grown so much with each other. The class unity seems so strong these days. I love SEC 5! "O"s seem to be more manageable with them by my side. Half of my peers have already moved up to JC or poly and I did felt really lost and really moody during the first few months, but I've learnt how to move on with the strength from my heavenly Papa. Thank you Daddy! I love you so much from the bottom of my heart. I know my love can't be measured up to Yours, but I just wanna say I really do love you because I know that all I have to do is to trust in You, and You'll make my paths straight. If I were given another chance to choose life again, I'd still choose this life because I would want none other than this, the family, the friends, the school, the life are just simply awesome because You are all in it. You are always there in every aspect of my life. I love you.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009 9:01 AM
It's been a long time since I've placed my fingers on the keyboard to update this. Life's good thus far, academically improving(seriously by God's grace!), late- comings to school has reduced. BUT ONE BAD THING! MISS YEW CAUGHT ME USING MY HAND PHONE TODAY! But she said nothing but I can kindda sense that she's feeling disappointed in me. But anyway, I won't dwell on this cause' if I do, I won't get anywhere. I'll just be stuck in this how-people-see-me kind of thing. Ms Gan texted me today and I was really mad at her. How many times has this been? Countless alright, but aiya, never mind la. 2 more months only, I'll just get through this and get out of GB, maybe not. Mom told me to say a prayer for her each time she sends me a really discouraging message(I can literally imagine her scolding me!), Ern told me to not listen out for her tone but her words, that really helped love!:D That's over! So yeah, I won't think much about it.
I'm pretty sure that this year's gonna be a tough one, to not only mature in Him, but to also get my life right and follow wise and right advices that will lead me to the place where He has planned for me. I'm still praying if TP Hospitality and Tourism is the right course for me. But whenever I see that course on TP brouchure, I'm so certained and at peace with it. Nevertheless, I'd want to be where God wants me to be, not somewhere that I want but not in accordance to His plans and purposes for me. That will be a difficult life boy! God is great and He will always be. :)
I miss those times when we were together,
talking over the phone,
shopping together,
singing to each other over the phone.
I really don't want to see you drifting away from God just becasue of one person.
I know that we've drifted apart,
I may not be the one whom you'll call in times of need anymore,
but I just have to let you know that I really miss you.
I'm sorry that I wasn't there when you needed someone.
Sometimes I'd just stare at my phone blankly,
hoping that you'll call me just like how you used to.
I really miss you so much boy.
Good night.
I'm pretty sure that this year's gonna be a tough one, to not only mature in Him, but to also get my life right and follow wise and right advices that will lead me to the place where He has planned for me. I'm still praying if TP Hospitality and Tourism is the right course for me. But whenever I see that course on TP brouchure, I'm so certained and at peace with it. Nevertheless, I'd want to be where God wants me to be, not somewhere that I want but not in accordance to His plans and purposes for me. That will be a difficult life boy! God is great and He will always be. :)
I miss those times when we were together,
talking over the phone,
shopping together,
singing to each other over the phone.
I really don't want to see you drifting away from God just becasue of one person.
I know that we've drifted apart,
I may not be the one whom you'll call in times of need anymore,
but I just have to let you know that I really miss you.
I'm sorry that I wasn't there when you needed someone.
Sometimes I'd just stare at my phone blankly,
hoping that you'll call me just like how you used to.
I really miss you so much boy.
Good night.
