Friday, April 24, 2009 7:05 PM
"Being in love is a good thing, but it is not the best thing. There are many things below it, but there are also things above it. You cannot make it the basis of a whole life. It is a noble feeling, but it is still a feeling...Knowledge can last, principles can last, habits can last; but feelings come and go... But, of course, ceasing to be "in love" need not mean ceasing to love. Love in this second sense — love as distinct from "being in love" — is not merely a feeling."
-C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
I really needed this enlightenment at some point in time but I thank God that it's all over. I've truly learnt many things from this phase of my life.
1. Often it's always about us, not about God.
As the saying goes, it takes two hands to clap.
If we don't do something, God can do nothing.
He wants us to overcome the obstacle, but He also wants us to play a part.
Many times God wants to say a "yes" to us so much, that He has to say a "no" sometimes.
2. Wrong love leads to a destructive downfall.
I've told myself this countless times but I always find myself back at square one. Because I didn't want to get out of it. until one fine day, my Mum told me that it hurts her so much for seeing me crying so much for her. That was my turning point. Friends, treat your Mum well!
3. "All things work together for the good of those who love Him, who has been called according to His purposes"- Romans 8: 28
This verse has proved God's faithfulness and abundant love for me through the years. So as long as we keep our eyes focused on the things that please God, He will definitely see us through. He won't watch us dying without saving us. But before He can save us, we have to go to Him.
4:50 AM
Today. is. Friday.
And I'm glad that we managed to talk things out.
And I'm glad that we managed to talk things out.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 11:52 PM
Before I fall asleep every night,
you're always in my mind.
Every night without fail,
I'm always reminded of the little things that you've done for me.
But at the same time,
you are the friend whom I've cried most for.
I questioned God,
why are you the one I've cried so much for?
Soon, He replied me,
"It's not Me dear.
It's you."
That hit me.
and now I know,
I've put my everything in you,
when I shouldn't.
That's gonna be it,
no longer you and you, and you.
I'm gonna be more of my Saviour.
you're always in my mind.
Every night without fail,
I'm always reminded of the little things that you've done for me.
But at the same time,
you are the friend whom I've cried most for.
I questioned God,
why are you the one I've cried so much for?
Soon, He replied me,
"It's not Me dear.
It's you."
That hit me.
and now I know,
I've put my everything in you,
when I shouldn't.
That's gonna be it,
no longer you and you, and you.
I'm gonna be more of my Saviour.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 7:13 AM
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody?
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry?
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking?
Looking down the road you shouldn't be taking.
I should know,
cause' I loathe the lost the day I let you go.
I know I hadn't been blogging for ages but it always seems that when I blog, there is something troubling me. Hah. I guess this is where I put my troubles into words, where I put my sorrows down on "paper".
You know, sometimes I just feel that I'm a jerk. Literally one bad ass. I just can't get over the fact that I treated her so badly though we had so much fun time together...
We are friends for a long while, and to think back, she was the very first person who brought so much laughter into my life, and after which, we brought joy to another person's life together, We'd have night calls and end the call with humorous acts. I still remember the times when she just couldn't bear to hang up the phone and I'd start laughing all over again. That 4 years have been one of the highlights of my primary school life. As we enter into the third phase of our education years, I got so carried away by my CCA and my new friends that I started to neglect this special friend of mine. I treated her badly. Real bad. To an extent that I don't want to talk about it. Now, I really regret it. And I'm trying to be a better friend to her. After so long, I didn't know that she still holds a special place in my heart, just that for so long, I didn't want to admit it. I want to say I'm sorry, I really want to say I'm sorry, but I just don't know how to. God, please help me. You've blessed me with this special friend yet I didn't treat her well. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
