Tuesday, December 30, 2008 10:19 AM
I'm just done with my resolutions and man! I'm so happy with it cause I did them right after qt and I immediately felt peace. Like right away baby! Thats the way how God works, the inner peace which surpasses all human understanding. I was just telling Bao Hui that I wouldn't want God to speak to me like practically cause I'd be freaked out. I mean who wouldn't! We'd rather Him giving us signs and wonders. I'm sorry God, not that I don't want to hear from You, as much as I want to, I'm afraid too. Please take away this freaking fear of mine. Speak to me if You want, but not in a thunderstorm, that will just scare the hell out of me. I know You get what I totally mean.
It's just 22 hours to 2009. As I bid goodbye to 2008, I'd want to express my grattitude to the following people who has blessed me so much in the past year(2 people first),
Sarah Lin- thank you for being there for me when I really needed someone to count on in the difficult moments of my life.
LBH- Bao'er! Thank you for being who you are. You're just a completely fabulous friend that anyone could ever dream of. Thank you for being the prayer answered for many sacrifices. Thank you for being there when I needed someone to just talk to in the middle of the night. Thank you for picking up the calls despite of the unholy timings that I called just to disturb you. Thank you for allowing me to suan you as many times as I can. Thank you for being so gullible and believing everything that I told you, including those "lies" that I said. Thank you for letting me to be an ass to you. Thank you for coming to church. Thank you for keeping food for me. Thank you for accompanying on the swing. Thank you for cleaning up for Christmasquerade. Thank you for being the brave one when I couldn't be. Thank you for telling me those heart-to-heart things like **. Thank you for sharing room with me in Cambodia, esp at KGH, I wouldn't know what to do without you early in the morning. Thank you for smuggling albums back for me. Thank you for helping to pack my baggage. Thank you for reminding me that I should hide my albums in my Ali Baba bag. Thank you for loving me!
宝儿，我爱你！
It's just 22 hours to 2009. As I bid goodbye to 2008, I'd want to express my grattitude to the following people who has blessed me so much in the past year(2 people first),
Sarah Lin- thank you for being there for me when I really needed someone to count on in the difficult moments of my life.
LBH- Bao'er! Thank you for being who you are. You're just a completely fabulous friend that anyone could ever dream of. Thank you for being the prayer answered for many sacrifices. Thank you for being there when I needed someone to just talk to in the middle of the night. Thank you for picking up the calls despite of the unholy timings that I called just to disturb you. Thank you for allowing me to suan you as many times as I can. Thank you for being so gullible and believing everything that I told you, including those "lies" that I said. Thank you for letting me to be an ass to you. Thank you for coming to church. Thank you for keeping food for me. Thank you for accompanying on the swing. Thank you for cleaning up for Christmasquerade. Thank you for being the brave one when I couldn't be. Thank you for telling me those heart-to-heart things like **. Thank you for sharing room with me in Cambodia, esp at KGH, I wouldn't know what to do without you early in the morning. Thank you for smuggling albums back for me. Thank you for helping to pack my baggage. Thank you for reminding me that I should hide my albums in my Ali Baba bag. Thank you for loving me!
宝儿，我爱你！
Monday, December 29, 2008 6:48 AM
I'm feeling much better now, especially after talking to Jiong. I tell you, we have telephaty okay. Our radars are quite sensitive to one another. We think the same, we're like in the same "dramatic" life, we both love Peranakan (if our papa and mama tell us that we're peranankan, we're gonna fly to the moon.) We're both afraid of 17 years old, we both love innocent guys like Nickky from Machi. But I'm still very much in love with Kenji.
Dear Jiong, if you're reading this, I wanna say I LOVE YOU TILL THE ENDS OF THE MOON!!! AND RETURN MY MESSAGE!!! IT HAS BEEN MORE THAN AN HOUR I TEXTED YOU SHERWIN KUAH JIONG WEI!!
Am listening to Everytime by A1 and I'm once again reminded that my albums are all with Loh Bao Hui. She keeps forgetting to bring my albums time and again and I'm really fed up! Na I'm just joking, you know right, I can be quite an ass at times. Pain in the ass indeed!
At this point in time, I'm experiencing a grandchild and grandmother conversation.
Dear Jiong, if you're reading this, I wanna say I LOVE YOU TILL THE ENDS OF THE MOON!!! AND RETURN MY MESSAGE!!! IT HAS BEEN MORE THAN AN HOUR I TEXTED YOU SHERWIN KUAH JIONG WEI!!
Am listening to Everytime by A1 and I'm once again reminded that my albums are all with Loh Bao Hui. She keeps forgetting to bring my albums time and again and I'm really fed up! Na I'm just joking, you know right, I can be quite an ass at times. Pain in the ass indeed!
At this point in time, I'm experiencing a grandchild and grandmother conversation.
Sunday, December 28, 2008 8:02 AM
For one reason or another, I feel like crying. I just feel so far from God, probably because qt have not been done 7 days a week. I realised that I really can't go on without Him. With Him around, the feelings are gone. Without Him, the feelings somehow came back. I don't want to love you this way. But though my mind says so, my heart chooses to rebel against me. Prob because Lu knows that I'm away from God, he attacks me at my vulnerable. Must be so. Lu knows nothing inside, he's just guessing my thoughts according to what I do, my physical going arounds. The heart is really a deceitful and cunning organ. No wonder the bible says so.
4:58 AM
心跳
王力宏
想跟我吵架 我没那麽无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那麽聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那麽点後悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
I'm currently hooked onto this song, 心跳. It's a highly recommended song and you should really read the Youtube comments. All are positive man! ALL! This song is really fabulous!
Why?
Firstly, it's a really catchy tune.
Secondly, it captures the heart of many. I'm certainly sure that this'd capture yours too. I bet that you'll sing this in your bathroom!
Enjoy.
Saturday, December 27, 2008 8:31 AM
There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.
He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods.
He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target.
Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.
As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck.
Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it.
He was shocked and grieved.
In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile; only to see his sister watching!
Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.
After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Sally, let's wash the dishes.'
But Sally said, 'Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.'
Then she whispered to him, 'Remember the duck?'
So, Johnny did the dishes.
Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper.'
Sally just smiled and said, 'Well,that's all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help.'
She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?'
So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.
After several day of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's hefinally couldn't stand it any longer.
He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.
Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know. You?see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing,but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.'
Thought for the day and every day thereafter.
Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done.
And the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.) ..whatever it is...
you need to know that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing.
He has seen your whole life.
He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.
He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.
The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness; He not only forgives you, but He forgets.
It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.
Go ahead and make the difference in someone's life today.
Share this with a friend and always remember: God is at the window!
He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods.
He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target.
Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.
As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck.
Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it.
He was shocked and grieved.
In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile; only to see his sister watching!
Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.
After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Sally, let's wash the dishes.'
But Sally said, 'Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.'
Then she whispered to him, 'Remember the duck?'
So, Johnny did the dishes.
Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper.'
Sally just smiled and said, 'Well,that's all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help.'
She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?'
So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.
After several day of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's hefinally couldn't stand it any longer.
He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.
Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know. You?see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing,but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.'
Thought for the day and every day thereafter.
Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done.
And the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.) ..whatever it is...
you need to know that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing.
He has seen your whole life.
He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.
He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.
The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness; He not only forgives you, but He forgets.
It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.
Go ahead and make the difference in someone's life today.
Share this with a friend and always remember: God is at the window!
2:02 AM
Cause' nobody wants to be the last one man
Everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Somebody else must feel the same somewhere
Everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Somebody else must feel the same somewhere
Friday, December 26, 2008 7:54 AM
The ferry ride to Batam was an hour. And it certainly allowed me to ponder on the little stuff that hung right at the back of me ever since don't know when. But while I was thinking them through, I actually asked God "Why did You let me go through these things? There must be something more to it. It's certainly more than letting me know how awesome and wonderful You are as my creator who knows me inside out"& the scariest thing is that I'm afraid that history would repeat itself, that I'd be back to square one. I'm sorry if this is kinda secretive and mysterious, but I just wanna find a place to think it through. Thanks for reading if you're still reading.
I may seem strong on the outside,
but believe me,
I'm really fragile on the inside.
I may seem strong on the outside,
but believe me,
I'm really fragile on the inside.
Thursday, December 25, 2008 9:09 AM
I will love you till the end of time
Every breathe of mine I'll hold you by my side
I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
-Let me die, Nicholas Tse
Every breathe of mine I'll hold you by my side
I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
-Let me die, Nicholas Tse
1:16 AM
Press play!!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008 8:00 AM
It's like freaking 0000 in the morning and once again, it's the time of the year. MERRY eve CHRISTMAS!!
Whoa hoh! It's Christmas Eve already and I'm not sure if I'm going Uncle Edmund's house for Christmas, and how about I don't even know a single cousin there except for Amelia and Amanda(she's the one who took my name btw.) It's gonna be like weird and stuff and I know what you're thinking. A social animal like me knows not how to socialise? Hey I know alright, just that I just feel super weird cause I only see them every few years and what about they are like my cousins?. Aiya I don't know la. I shall see when the time comes, which is like tomorrow.
Anyways, I've kindda started on my holiday assignment. Completed 2 SS questions, say that I'm pro, c'mon say it, I know you wanna say. 2 SS questions in freaking 45 mins. Pro sio. But I don't know for what reason, I feel so proud that I even managed to touch my assignments, Chun Feng hasn't even started his alright. I'm better off than him, well hope he doesn't read this. :D
2009 is just 1 week away, to make it longer, 7 days. I'm counting down and shuts! I haven't done my resolutions and plans. This is no good of a sign. I'm gonna stop work at the end of January. Okay think of this kay, counting from the first day that I started work till now, I've only worked for like 4 days. Four days only and Mom actually wanted me to quit this Sat, or so I told her. Including Sat will be 5 days. IMAGINE! QUITTING AFTER WORKING AT BAKERZIN FOR FIVE DAYS!! Yea thats why I decided to give Bakerzin some face, work until Jan ends and then, shall I fully concentrate on Os. Wish me all the best hommies.
With _____
(fill in the blanks yourself!)
Mand Mand
Whoa hoh! It's Christmas Eve already and I'm not sure if I'm going Uncle Edmund's house for Christmas, and how about I don't even know a single cousin there except for Amelia and Amanda(she's the one who took my name btw.) It's gonna be like weird and stuff and I know what you're thinking. A social animal like me knows not how to socialise? Hey I know alright, just that I just feel super weird cause I only see them every few years and what about they are like my cousins?. Aiya I don't know la. I shall see when the time comes, which is like tomorrow.
Anyways, I've kindda started on my holiday assignment. Completed 2 SS questions, say that I'm pro, c'mon say it, I know you wanna say. 2 SS questions in freaking 45 mins. Pro sio. But I don't know for what reason, I feel so proud that I even managed to touch my assignments, Chun Feng hasn't even started his alright. I'm better off than him, well hope he doesn't read this. :D
2009 is just 1 week away, to make it longer, 7 days. I'm counting down and shuts! I haven't done my resolutions and plans. This is no good of a sign. I'm gonna stop work at the end of January. Okay think of this kay, counting from the first day that I started work till now, I've only worked for like 4 days. Four days only and Mom actually wanted me to quit this Sat, or so I told her. Including Sat will be 5 days. IMAGINE! QUITTING AFTER WORKING AT BAKERZIN FOR FIVE DAYS!! Yea thats why I decided to give Bakerzin some face, work until Jan ends and then, shall I fully concentrate on Os. Wish me all the best hommies.
With _____
(fill in the blanks yourself!)
Mand Mand
Sunday, December 21, 2008 3:04 AM
Cuz' ultimately, I wouldn't wanna see you in hell. Neither anyone.
Friday, December 19, 2008 7:02 AM
There are times in life when you gotta crawl
Lose your grip, trip and fall
When you can't lean on no-one else
That's when you find yourself
I've been around and I've noticed that
Walking's easier when the road is flat
Them danged ole hiils'll get you every time
Yeah, the good Lord gave us mountains
So we could learn how to climb
-Lonestar, Mountains.
Lose your grip, trip and fall
When you can't lean on no-one else
That's when you find yourself
I've been around and I've noticed that
Walking's easier when the road is flat
Them danged ole hiils'll get you every time
Yeah, the good Lord gave us mountains
So we could learn how to climb
-Lonestar, Mountains.
Thursday, December 18, 2008 7:53 AM
Good morning beautiful
How was your night
Mine was wonderful
With you by my side
And when I open my eyes
And see your sweet face
It's a good morning beautiful day
I didn't see the light
I didn't know day from night
I had no reason to care
But since you came along
I can face the dawn
Cause I know you'll be there
Good morning beautiful
How was your night
Mine was wonderful
With you by my side
And when I open my eyes
And see your sweet face
It's a good morning beautiful day
I'll never worry
If it's raining outside
Cause in here with you girl
The sun always shines
Good morning beautiful
How was your night
Mine was wonderful
With you by my side
And when I open my eyes
And see your sweet face
It's a good morning beautiful day, yeah
A good morning beautiful...day
Good morning beautiful
A beautiful day
Good morning beautiful
Good morning beautiful
A beautiful day
Good morning beautiful day
A beautiful day
Good morning beautiful
4:21 AM
I realized it soon enough baby,
that you're not the one for me.
As much as I want you to be,
too bad darling,
you'll never be.
I prayed,
I prayed,
and I prayed.
I fasted too, I think,
to ask God, if you're the one for me.
As time passes me by, same goes for the feelings too.
This certainly isn't the time for me,
neither it is for you.
Friends are the better platform for us,
so will we.
that you're not the one for me.
As much as I want you to be,
too bad darling,
you'll never be.
I prayed,
I prayed,
and I prayed.
I fasted too, I think,
to ask God, if you're the one for me.
As time passes me by, same goes for the feelings too.
This certainly isn't the time for me,
neither it is for you.
Friends are the better platform for us,
so will we.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008 11:08 PM
会唱情歌的人，
不一定懂得如何去爱。
我们都会唱情歌，
但我们，都无法把爱，说出口。
不一定懂得如何去爱。
我们都会唱情歌，
但我们，都无法把爱，说出口。
6:57 PM
I think Usher looks really sophisticated and hip here.
Totally potrayed the hip- hop and kind of classy
look here.
And oh! fyi, his second child is born, is a he.
5:38 AM
Wherever you go,
whatever you do,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Whatever it takes,
or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Isn't that sweet? Shayne Ward is really one great singing artiste man! (But Kenji is still first on my list sweet love. Well SW can be second.) This is one of the very few songs that touches my heart. Ain't the lyrics meaningful and sincere? Composing a song for your beloved is one of the sweetest things to do for her, guys, this is a really awesome suggestion alright. Take it from a girl herself, woman knows what a woman wants.
Packed my room, or rather just the table today. It was just the table and dang! I took the whole day. But at least for now my table looks so much presentable, for now. And I've been wearing the same clothes for two days, and honestly speaking, I find that cool. I mean I wear 1 set of uniform one week. Yeah ewwwwwwwww. But I just feel so comfortable wearing that set of unifrom. I'm sorry if I grossed you out. Well if you're wondering if I did change my ____, I did la! (Are you thinking what I'm thinking B1? HAHA!) I'm not that disgusting.
Yen has put me up on friday, 0930- 0300. Thank God for that! I'm working one day this week. Can you believe it?? ONE DAY only! What's on this week?
1. Christmasquerade.
2. Family outing to BATAM next friday. (I'm serious for this Bao. I ain't lying this time haha!)
That should be all.
Till then,
Mand Mand.
whatever you do,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Whatever it takes,
or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Isn't that sweet? Shayne Ward is really one great singing artiste man! (But Kenji is still first on my list sweet love. Well SW can be second.) This is one of the very few songs that touches my heart. Ain't the lyrics meaningful and sincere? Composing a song for your beloved is one of the sweetest things to do for her, guys, this is a really awesome suggestion alright. Take it from a girl herself, woman knows what a woman wants.
Packed my room, or rather just the table today. It was just the table and dang! I took the whole day. But at least for now my table looks so much presentable, for now. And I've been wearing the same clothes for two days, and honestly speaking, I find that cool. I mean I wear 1 set of uniform one week. Yeah ewwwwwwwww. But I just feel so comfortable wearing that set of unifrom. I'm sorry if I grossed you out. Well if you're wondering if I did change my ____, I did la! (Are you thinking what I'm thinking B1? HAHA!) I'm not that disgusting.
Yen has put me up on friday, 0930- 0300. Thank God for that! I'm working one day this week. Can you believe it?? ONE DAY only! What's on this week?
1. Christmasquerade.
2. Family outing to BATAM next friday. (I'm serious for this Bao. I ain't lying this time haha!)
That should be all.
Till then,
Mand Mand.
Sunday, December 14, 2008 1:12 AM
I'M BACKI'M BACKI'M BACK!!! Tell me that you missed me won't you! Cambodia was awesome and AWESOME! I really can't imagine 11D10N without anyone on the team. Every individual one of them made such a special presence in the team, without anyone of them, I bet that the trip wouldn't be as fun as it was. I just wanna say to the team I LOVE YOU GIRLS! 11D10N spent with you babes was really one of the times of my life and I'll never ever forget this trip. Promise me that you won't too kay? :)
Highlights of the mission trip:
1. H2H with Basia.
(I'd never imagined that this will happen especially when I used to be sooo uber afraid of her.)
2. H2H with Ern.
(Muacksz!)
3. Star- gazing at Baray.
(It was certainly the bomb hon! The stars were so beautiful.)
4. Mission work at Widows' Island.
5. Russian and Central Market.
(Bargained like mad when you get there!)
6. Bus rides.
(Esp after dinner!)
7. Same same but different.
8. No money No friends No friends No love No love No honey
(or something along that line.)
And there are so so so many things that I love about mission trip, just that I couldn't remember. Anyways, Mission trip was the bomb and if I had the chance to go back Cambodia again, I'd certainly go, only if the same team is going. Na I'm just kidding hahaha!
Now, back in Singapore, Ern's at KL until thursday and shucks! I'm missing her soo badly already. :( Hurry back love! Missing you in Sinagpore.
Highlights of the mission trip:
1. H2H with Basia.
(I'd never imagined that this will happen especially when I used to be sooo uber afraid of her.)
2. H2H with Ern.
(Muacksz!)
3. Star- gazing at Baray.
(It was certainly the bomb hon! The stars were so beautiful.)
4. Mission work at Widows' Island.
5. Russian and Central Market.
(Bargained like mad when you get there!)
6. Bus rides.
(Esp after dinner!)
7. Same same but different.
8. No money No friends No friends No love No love No honey
(or something along that line.)
And there are so so so many things that I love about mission trip, just that I couldn't remember. Anyways, Mission trip was the bomb and if I had the chance to go back Cambodia again, I'd certainly go, only if the same team is going. Na I'm just kidding hahaha!
Now, back in Singapore, Ern's at KL until thursday and shucks! I'm missing her soo badly already. :( Hurry back love! Missing you in Sinagpore.
